Geta, good times and sun

Good days and spring. Noticed the lack of writing from me the last days? Well, the sun shines and I am in a swell mood. That's things that I don't write much about. But I will sort of today, or at least something realated and inspired by it. Because I walked through Oslo today, as I was on my way to a coffeeappointment with my cousin. Walking there, with my music in my earplugs and the sun in my back, I realized how different it all seemed from walking there the day before and I started to reflect on the city's different personalities. The sounds, the smells, the people. It is all a part of a city, and today they all went together and gave their most to making a beautifull day. It is no big deal, really, however it is amazing how such a seemingly unimportant thing can lighten up a day. Uhm, that is about all I'd like to share right now. Now everybody knows I'm not dead at least.

My way

But through it all, when there was doubt, I ate it up, and spat it out. I faced it all, and I stood tall, and did it my way.
Soon I'll be older..... one year, nah, doesn't feel like it. There, that is all I want to say about that as for now. I became happy once more today. All I seem to need these days are a few well placed words from some special someones and I'm suddendly on the boat for happyland. I don't mind though. I'm not a buddhist so ups and downs are expected. Now I finally got myself an up. If my trip to Japan also makes for an up, I'll probably have made up for having had such a downperiod the last year. Just now I'm watching tv, wondering if the kid in the commercial is really a boy or a girl. Now I'll drink again, I'm like a camel, goes long without drinking and when I first do, It's buttloads. Good night.

今日、アウデゥンさんとコーヒーを飲みながら、日本語で話をしていた。よかったね。まえより日本語を話すのがじょうずになったと思う。アウデゥンさんはしんせつだと思う。じゃあ。おやすみ。

The music of the night.

Movie-night yesterday. As so many nights actually. But this one was especially nice. Everyone there was for once really wanted (with the ecception of two guys showing up for the last 10 minutes of the film.) It is seldom I get to see a movie with people I find myself completely comfortable around, unless of course I see it alone or with only óne other person. I got to really relax for the first time in a long, long time. No more papers due, no more surprise tests, no more nothing. However the greatest thing about the day before this, is its end. She stayed over at my place.  If she is my queen I do not know, and I do not want to know yet either. For the moment she is just a girl I find very attractive and whose company I enjoy. No underlying intentions by the way. There is nothing that beats waking up with the sun in your face and a beautifull girl at your side. Goldie, she said her name was Goldie.

Missing

I tend to miss things. I guess it is a normal human condition, missing things and never really be satisfied with what one has. Right now I miss the past, long gone girlfriends, long gone friends, memories fading into the back of my mind. And I miss things that never actually happened, but that could have if I had played differently. It can't be healthy to miss all this and I should really stop. However I can't make myself. The dangers of missing all this is that one locks oneself indoors and tries desperately to relive things that has happened through photos and vidoes and such. Perhaps I should get out more, get myself some new experiences I can miss later on. One thing is certain, I do not find my queen if I don't leave this den of broken pasts. And then of course I think that I may have already found her, and given her up and I start to miss again... It is not supposed to be easy. Perhaps I am lucky and she finds me.... I can only wish. If you read this queen, promise you will find me ok?

ちょっとおちこんだ。今、食べたり、飲みたりしなくちゃいけないから、やめる。あとね。

Letters from Iwo Jima

I just noticed right now that the clock-thingy on this blog is rather inacurate, I have not calculated by how much, and come to think of it I don't ever want to find out. It feels somewhat comfortable to know that one never really can tell when I wrote what I did. Makes it independent of time. But it was not this I planned to rant about, no this was only a little digression. I was planning to praise Misted Eastwoods great movie "硫黄島からの手紙" or "Letters from Iwo Jima" as it is also called. I saw it for the second time again tonight and once again I was greatly touched by it. It is a very honest movie filled with humanity and feelings. Also it is one of the few American war-movies that tries to abandon the patriotism-consept on behalf of trying to show things from different sides. I think this is crucial for the movie's feel and spirit. One must however be warned that this is a very sad movie. Almost 20000 or so Japanese soldiers died on that island. This makes for 2 hours of loss and despair. However, it is a great movie, I shall not say how it ends or what happens so go se for yourself.

硫黄島からの手紙はよかっただ。かなしくなった。映画の音楽がとても好きだ。
これが一番好きだかもしれません。

Where does one find the antqueens?

I feel lonely. However my loneliness must not be seen as desperation, as many would have it to be. Nay I am not desperate to find myself a new queen. I simply just admit that I am longing for the feeling it gives. I went out with my brother and some of his friends yesterday. Saturday night life in Oslo. Sadness and loneliness walked with me and the thousands of people crowding the various nightclubs. They all seemed to be seeking that moment of happiness that an escape from everyday life could provide. A quick feeling og love and being appreciated. I enjoyed the dancing and the smiles for an hour or so before leaving for home. I get uneasy being alone in the center of falseness. The walk home was filled with starshine, good food and the beautifullness og being the only person ine the world. Well this sure sounded emo so I'll just round it up about now. Any ways, my point being that I enjoyed last night but I'm still no bar- og pub- or nightclub-man. And I do not wish my queen to be one of the 
people found there regularly either.

Life smiled

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face. It is a long time since the last time I woke up in such a great mood. And it is all thanks to my good friends. They made yesterday great. Since you are reading this I figure you wanna know what happened so I'll just tell.

Kenneth, one of my friends, had a party for the entire japansese class. Of course, not all of them showed up but enough to make it just right. And the guest of honor, Tami-sensei, also showed up to my, and everyone else's delight. We had singstar, we had wine, we had fun. I actually sang, what gives.... "Alice Cooper - Poison" and "Ronan Keating - Father and Son." Yes I know it was the wrong version of "Father and Son" but it was not as I could choose anything else. I lost to dansu-jin at "Father and Son" but won against Kenneth, however barely, at "Poison." And to top the night of I got some "possitive attention" right before I left for the final subway. Thank you ;) All this would have made any night good, but it still managed to get just a bit better as I met up with Emiko at the mailbox-place. She is so nice to talk to, and we did so for quite a while.

I do not know if this all qualified for a blog. However something as significant as me feeling quite happy and satisfied with life. Hmmmm.

昨日はとてもよかった。えみこさんとマリアさんのおかげだったんだ。
今日、私は嬉いです。みんなのおかげだった。

I woke up this morning...

So, as you probably all figured, I woke up this morning.
For some reason this is among the first thing I did, before even eating.
I don't even know what to write, or if I am going to write anything,
however it would be a total waste of time making this if I were not
to use it.... But I guess this will do as a test-run. And I really do need
that food I mentioned. Later then?

だれか日本語をわかりますか。私に書いてください。
私は日本語を勉強するし、日本語を練習しなくちゃいけないし。